‘Dear Diary’

Just like any amount of you bloggers out there, I too used to keep a diary or journal of sorts before I began blogging. A lot of significant things have been happening in my life over the past year or so, and it was my way of letting out pent up feelings and remembering special days or whatever, so that I could look back someday and see what I went through. You know? Because sometimes you remember that something insane happened in your life – but after a while you forget just how crazy you felt. And most times when I read back to something I’d written ages ago, it feels like I’m reading the thoughts and feelings of someone else.

‘The Diary’ was my place to have a good rant about anything and everything – not giving a flying fart who would read it. Knowing that everything I felt and every word I wrote would be protected withing the privacy of those pages, unlike a blog, which can only get to a certain extent of ‘personal’.

Last night, I sat with my journal, a little grudgingly, because I needed to write a a few things down. (Initially thought I’d become lazy to actually WRITE.)

And when I checked the date of my last entry, it said January 01st, 2009. A sketchy little entry, written at 3am.

I put in yesterdays date, and began to write. And I realized there was SO MUCH that I hadn’t put down, things that I didn’t wanna forget, and I realized how much I had actually neglected it. And I missed writing. Just the basics. Just stuff that probably mattered only to me.

Much like this post.

Anyways, I was reminded of how much I’ve changed, from maybe a year ago, to now. I love that I can look back and see what mistakes I made, the highs and the lows of my life. See where I’ve gone around in cirlcles at times, with one problem, and see how I overcame it.

Pretty inspiring stuff.